Me gusta cuando callas - Pablo Neruda

ME gustas cuando callas porque estás como ausente,
y me oyes desde lejos, y mi voz no te toca.
Parece que los ojos se te hubieran volado
y parece que un beso te cerrara la boca.

Como todas las cosas están llenas de mi alma
emerges de las cosas, llena del alma mía.
Mariposa de sueño, te pareces a mi alma,
y te pareces a la palabra melancolía.

Me gustas cuando callas y estás como distante.
Y estás como quejándote, mariposa en arrullo.
Y me oyes desde lejos, y mi voz no te alcanza:
déjame que me calle con el silencio tuyo.

Déjame que te hable también con tu silencio
claro como una lámpara, simple como un anillo.
Eres como la noche, callada y constelada.
Tu silencio es de estrella, tan lejano y sencillo.

Me gustas cuando callas porque estás como ausente.
Distante y dolorosa como si hubieras muerto.
Una palabra entonces, una sonrisa bastan.
Y estoy alegre, alegre de que no sea cierto.


I like you calm because you are absent,
and you hear me from far away and my voice does not touch you .
It seems that your eyes had flown
and it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth.

As all things are filled with my soul
you emerge from the things , filled with my soul.
Butterfly dream, you look like my soul ,
and you are like the word melancholy.

I like you calm and you seem far away .
And you are a moaning, a butterfly cooing .
And you hear me from far away and my voice does not reach :
Let me come with your silence.

Let me talk to you with your silence
clear as a lamp , simple as a ring .
You are like the night , quiet and starry .
Your silence is star , as remote and candid.

I like you calm because you are absent .
Distant and painful as if you had died.
One word then, one smile, is enough .
And I am happy , happy that it is not true.

Just Another Heartbreak Love Story

Girl A   [1:12 PM]:

hey

Boy   [1:12 PM]:

Good morning!

Girl A   [1:12 PM]:

yup

I guess I've been holding this off too long

But do you still want to make this work?

Boy   [1:13 PM]:

Yes and no

i just cant do it the way you want

Girl A   [1:14 PM]:

what way??

Boy   [1:14 PM]:

we can talk after work to be honest

i am sure me trying to type it out

would just make you more confused

Girl A   [1:14 PM]:

no

i'd rather do this now

i've waited long enough

and i don't want to do be put off again

Boy   [1:15 PM]:

no worries..

1.) I am personally not fit for a long distance relationship..this is not your fault.

there is nothign you could have done

it is more a realization while being at home as well

hard questions..hard answers..

2.) I am especially not equip to handle with you..i have tried to call everyday..

be this crazy share person..

and i am not that way

this again..maybe issues with myself..but i just got a place by myself..living alone in HI

and well..i am protective of it now

i tried to be the call everyday..text etc..

and it doesnt work for me..

so when i say "Yes and No" i just mean i could continue to talk to you..

and who knows what the future holds..but i dont think i can be the true BF you want..

more like a friend..that does care about you..

but cant give you everything you need

Girl A   [1:18 PM]:

is that all?

Boy   [1:18 PM]:

pretty much

and i am g@y

jk on last part

Girl A   [1:18 PM]:

lol there's always half truth on jokes

Boy   [1:19 PM]:

hahaha

touche

Girl A   [1:19 PM]:

so, you don't love me anymore, is this what i think it is?

Boy   [1:19 PM]:

i mean...you said love in week...2..

so lets not get carried away

Girl A   [1:20 PM]:

huh?

carried away? wow

Boy   [1:20 PM]:

honey.

you are an amazing sweet caring person

there is nothing wrong with it..nothign you should change

but long distance wise..i am not the best fit for you

Girl A   [1:20 PM]:

then why haven't you wrote the letter of invitation so i can visit you?

Boy   [1:21 PM]:

oh yeah! ha..i think bc i was thinking the nurse thing from my client

would have helped

i did forget..sorry

Girl A   [1:22 PM]:

and there i was holding off the "reminder" so you wont see it as a task

Boy   [1:23 PM]:

i know..

not saying I am amazing person

Girl A   [1:23 PM]:

why would you even say you love me too if you think we are just being carried away?

Boy   [1:23 PM]:

i tried the long distance....

didnt work.

Girl A   [1:23 PM]:

I would have been okay with just playing around and living by the moment.

it didn't work?

why?

Boy   [1:24 PM]:

nope

Girl A   [1:24 PM]:

i actually thought we were doing okay

and just that you had a lot of things on your plate

Boy   [1:24 PM]:

but you freaked out too much

like after the first weekend..

Girl A   [1:24 PM]:

that was too much?

Boy   [1:24 PM]:

i was away on vacation..

i said you were great..nice..

didnt freak out..

we did video chat..

then you get all WHY ARE YOU NOT TALKING TO ME!

Girl A   [1:25 PM]:

and that pushed you away?

so, its my fault then? i tried too hard to make this work?

Boy   [1:26 PM]:

no..

see you cant see it as that way

i am very introverted ..and i still have things to work thru

but i am not there..

and i will just resent you more and more

Girl A   [1:27 PM]:

why would you even resent me?

Boy   [1:27 PM]:

bc you are making me share in a way i dont want to

that is the daily texts..calls..

you want calls everyday

right?

i dont

period..end of story

Girl A   [1:28 PM]:

so, that's not your way? i thought you were doing it becoz u wanted it too.

Boy   [1:28 PM]:

no way

and i tried to say it nicely

and i TRIED to actually do it

and in the end..i dont

Girl A   [1:28 PM]:

we were actually dong it your way. if it were my way, it would have been different.

Boy   [1:28 PM]:

oh i am sure

i would have been on facebook

Girl A   [1:29 PM]:

nah

not facebook.

Boy   [1:29 PM]:

look..in the end..idk where or what i want yet..

Do i love and respect you?

yes..i do

Do i want to be in a true relationship..no..probably not..

would i still like to talk to  you at work..

see how you are doing?

yes..

Girl A   [1:30 PM]:

so, no more Hunnybunny's visit to Manila part 2, I guess?

Boy   [1:30 PM]:

probably not

idk..right this minute no

Girl A   [1:31 PM]:

I wish you had told me sooner tho. It was agonizing for me. I hated that. I hated you for doing that to me. I thought you cared for me, like even just a friend.

But I can never really hate you

Boy   [1:32 PM]:

hate is a strong word

yeah..i dont hate you either..

Girl A   [1:32 PM]:

Again, thank you for your time. And love or what not.

I appreciate everything.

Boy   [1:32 PM]:

i do think you are amazing

Girl A   [1:33 PM]:

We shall end whatever we think is a burden to us, as I do not want to live my life unhappy.

I still think you are too. Regardless of your effed up ways of loving.

lol

Boy   [1:33 PM]:

HEHE

Girl A   [1:33 PM]:

So, thank you for the experience.

Boy   [1:34 PM]:

hey..all my ex's usually get married soon after

Girl A   [1:34 PM]:

The first ever white boy that I loved. (except for leonaro the caprio)

Boy   [1:34 PM]:

like if you get thru this sh!t..you are rewarded

Girl A   [1:34 PM]:

lol

and painted for! Thank you for the inspiration.

Boy   [1:35 PM]:

your welcome huh..

i am not going to forget you..

Girl A   [1:35 PM]:

I've actually never painted again since then.

Boy   [1:35 PM]:

you should continue..

one of the things i loved about ya

Girl A   [1:36 PM]:

oh i dunno. maybe if i get inspired again.

loved? lol

ok

Boy   [1:36 PM]:

hehe

past tense too much?

Girl A   [1:37 PM]:

Well, I still do love you. Whatever that means to you. I will always care and be a friend if you need one.

Take care of yourself. Don't get sick anymore. Enjoy life to the fullest! And always wear protection. <3

Boy   [1:38 PM]:

yes mom

hehe

Girl A   [1:39 PM]:

part of me is like... woohoo... single again! there are tons of guys and girls waiting. lol

but its like... okay.. no more hunnybunny.

Boy   [1:39 PM]:

hun..there is so much s3xy and amazing about you

it is not even funny

dont take me beign silly

and honestly..i am just admitting

Girl A   [1:40 PM]:

i know i am awesome.

Boy   [1:40 PM]:

to myself i cant hang

Girl A   [1:40 PM]:

cant hang?

Boy   [1:40 PM]:

hehe.idk..dont read into it

Girl A   [1:40 PM]:

wha

grr

"genie, you're free!" lol

Boy   [1:41 PM]:

there you go

just keep with taht

ladies..white boys.

Girl A   [1:41 PM]:

hahaha

Boy   [1:41 PM]:

take your pick

Girl A   [1:41 PM]:

i'll miss Gaston

lol

Boy   [1:41 PM]:

ill miss your whole body

Girl A   [1:41 PM]:

nah. maybe just gaston. and your chest hairs. and beard.

lol

Boy   [1:42 PM]:

beard is getting thick

Girl A   [1:43 PM]:

I'm happy we spoke finally. Atleast I can now sleep properly. I'll be fine. Thank you for this chance. And thank you for ending it well.

Boy   [1:45 PM]:

yes..there is not one bad thought/feeling towards

Girl A   [3:27 PM]:

i can't seem to function.

feels like i lost something good

Boy   [3:27 PM]:

?

no no..

you lost nothing

Girl A   [3:27 PM]:

but its over, right?

Boy   [3:28 PM]:

umm..in theory yes..in theory no

i guess you would be an "ex"

but if we can cross paths in another way in the future..

i still love ya

just sayin..not ending on bad terms in my mind..

just doesnt work at this time

Girl A   [4:38 PM]:

how did you ldr before worked? i mean you had another reason of why you guys broke up. Was I just too needy then?

Boy   [4:39 PM]:

again..

might just be that i cant handle it